Abusive to my man

[Baba]

I have been in several awful relationships but three years ago I met Andy and we have a son of 1 years old.

My first relationship at 14 - he was emotionally controlling and physically violent towards me. But ever since then, in every relationship, I become out of control and can be quite violent when challenged.

I don't want it to ruin the relationship I have got - Andy is so understanding and knows exactly how to read me - I have hit him once but he can't remember as he was very drunk - I get very, very scared when my loved ones are drunk - don't know why and that's when I usually get violent and out of control but I just seem to be very, very angry a lot of the time.

My Dad died in May and I vowed I would never drink again or get abusive again but I still have. Seems it will never change

Thanks am back in Brum next month visiting folks may get as far as Leeds visiting mates, but alas not Newcastle

Either of you remember Tuxedo Junction and The Studio?

I remember Studio - I went there for my 18th birthday party and was so drunk that I fell asleep in the toilets and a hurly burly bouncer had to carry me out, right across the dance floor into a taxi.

None of my "so called" friends came back in the taxi with me - they just wrote my address on my hand and bundled me in!!

The next morning I woke up and didn't know how I got there - I was still wearing my clothes but was so lucky that nothing untoward happened - needless to say, they are not my friends anymore.

And yes, the Tuxedo with the revolving dancefloor and floors that you stick to.

Anyone remember Julies???