and I am terrified. Things have not been going well recently, he's really stressed at work, things are falling apart between us and we have been at each other's throats for months. I really want this to work, but it just doesn't seem to be right now. Lots of friends and family members seem to be so happy in their relationships (keep on finding out about engagements, moving in togethers, babies and so on), whereas we are so miserable, and DP won't even acknowledge that we're miserable.
It's been a tough day at work; I'm only just holding it together, but have a few more hours to go and then need the strength to go and face up to DP. Last night I was in tears all evening thinking about this. I can't talk to my parents about it because all they can come up with is "why aren't you married yet?" and when I complain about all the pressure from them and others to settle down and commit to each other, all I get is "just ignore it". Part of the reason why we're having this discussion is because so many BLOODY people have been asking recently.