For Kally

[girlnextdoor]

Have you met the man yet and been to visit- keep us updated?

keep us updated- sounds like you are in a better place as they say!

Kally, I'm very glad you're having such positive feelings and are able to take things as they come. Will try and learn a lesson from you! The feeling of control must be lovely and that's what I'd like to regain so much - perhaps a few days out of the normal "loop" as you say would be a good thing. Seeing him this weekend and hope it will be calm and happy and that the drama of the last couple of weeks is over.

Mr. McD came last night after working a 12 hour shift. He train journeyed it all the way here, his Mum with his DS.
To be honest after 4 weeks since last meet we didn't really 'talk' much and by the way he behaved he really missed me (just as I did him). My legs go to jelly when I see him and he says I have same effect on him.
I didn't bring up the subject of going there as our time was so rushed. He just ate breakfast and left now to catch train as he starts work again at midday.
Really and truly his person is more relaxed and he talks humourously about the antics at McD's. The way he was and the way he is now, is less stressed and far more at ease. I really do think he has changed profession. I can see it in his behaviour and lightness. He says to come home and know he's not going to get a million calls with stressing and can relax, means the whole world to him.
The thought went thru my mind, (maybe because he has come clean about working there he feels at peace with him and me)but, well, time will tell. But in all honesty I think he has had a career change.
I guess I just have to be patient and take him at face value. Not get caught up in negative thoughts and just maybe this one takes a bit longer to define the future, due to the distance and the sequence of events.

Kally- I am glad you had a nice weekend- reading between the lines, it was all bed and not much talk?

Just be careful- the trouble with long distance stuff is that the lust takes over due to the gaps in meeting up- and other stuff gets shelved.

I know you are in a better palce, but he could be the best actor in the world- just keep a little question mark hanging in the back of your mind!

good luck with it- hope you do visit him.

girlnextdoor - yes the stuff does get shelved, you are right. But when the timing is good I will definately go there. I dont fancy going there now his Mum is about. Just not up to it at this point in my life. She will be gone in a couple of weeks (even less). I do have a question mark, only natural since I only know what is presented to me, (and what I don't know can really go out of proportion) but having thought this through I really have put it in its proper order and no longer feel tied in knots. (I think going away helped me a lot to refocus).I wouldn't risk anything and nothing is a stake here, apart from my trust and feelings, but then I am keeping a self preservative streak.. Life has taught me to do that.