Im so upset i cant stop crying

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I feel very sad and ridiculous im very unhappy and have no one to talk to about it

do you want to/do you think can turn the relationship to dp around?

If not staying there long-term is going to be grim, isn't it?

Yes sandy you've got it in one... we're not compatible! We have nothing in common and probably shouldnt be together!!

To lucylue,
im planning a trip away with the dc@s back to see my family....

Im just going to bf dd will be back soon

And on top of everything else you have a baby to care for. No wonder you aren't feeling great.

I have to get to bed now, early start tomorrow. Hope you feel a bit stronger in the morning, come back and tell us how things are going

thanks sandy....

i would like to advise you to think of everything after your break with a clear, rested mind.
i hope your having the break soon.
or do you have any holidays with your dh and dcs?

you mentioned about having your child benefit, is there any way you could phone to arrange it to go into another bank account, that way you are able to buy things for the dc's without asking for money? i have mine put into a seperate current account so that when the babies need nappies, or the older ones need shoes there is always money there. also if an emergency comes up i have that money to fall back on,

Im planning a trip home with the baby, ds will be staying here with MIL...but thats another story...

Take this time at home to think and have time out. How do you feel when you are at home, are you happier or more comfident or just more at ease. Think about you and your childrens future when not at home, are they more happier. They may miss there dad at first, but does this change? Lots of thinking ahead, mabe no changes or lots. Good luck.

take both DCs, I would; that way if you feel the need to stay away longer you can. In fact, it might help if you did stay away longer and it might prod your partner into deciding whether or not you were worth fighting for. And it would give you a chance to see how you really feel about him, and whether you would be able to cope on your own. Sounds like you're pretty much coping on your own anyway so probably no big difference EXCEPT that you would be back in control of your life.

Your partner sounds very controlling and as though he has you boxed into a corner - not really the actions of a loving partner.

for you - hope something works out for you