I am feeling really down and looking for some opinions and guidance.
My husband and I chose his brother and his brothers wife as the godparents for our child. We are Christians. It is a decision I took very seriously as my faith is important to me and I want my daughter to have a fulfilled life and godparents who want to see and love her. They had been supportive during the pregnancy and early newborn days. However things took a turn when my baby was diagnosed with a disability and I was admitted to hospital for postpartum depression. My sister in law started saying I caused it by having a c section (i had an emergency, traumatic birth) and not breastfeeding her. She has made alot of upsetting comments. I eventually sent a message explaining how I felt. It was approximately one week after they had their new third baby (in and out of hospital one hour , very easy birth and feeding). I was very calm in the message and only described in terms of my feelings, not talking negatively about her. I requested she not keep bringing up my birth and feeding failures.
Anyway my sister in law didnt take my message kindly and has been recently excluding me from family events. She did not even invite me to her baby's baptism, let alone make me godmother. She told my husband they wanted him as godfather but would not have me. He declined as he though it would hurt me too much. It has indeed hurt me deeply. I feel so much guilt to my daughter for making them her godparents, as it seems lile they will no longer be in our life