My boyfriend of 13 years and father to my 2 children, has walked out and left me. This will be about his 20th time he has upped and left. This pattern started when I was 7 weeks pregnant with my first child. And ever since then he has upped and left if I disagree with him. The relationship has been awful and over the years he’s said so many horrible things to me. Mocked my appearance, what I say, what I eat, what I watch. I’ve been fine since he left last week as I think I am now finally realising I don’t want this anymore. I’m sick of walking on egg shells, frightened to say anything that may upset him. I just feel a bit deflated today as he sounds really happy. I don’t want him back but the negative thoughts of how will I survive, and guilt over my children are now creeping in. Has anyone had a partner who has done this, and you have finally now broke free