I don’t even know where to start. Last night H and I got into a heated row. Our toddler isn’t sleeping at the moment and wakes for a bottle then just doesn’t settle again, my H is a lorry driver and struggles when hasn’t had much sleep and gets impatient very quickly. He shouted at our toddler to go back to sleep. I was feeding our baby at the time and said to him to come back to bed and I’ll sort it as I’m much more patient.
He took that comment as an accusation and flipped saying I was accusing him of being a bad dad etc I just ignored him which riled him up even more. He then told me we was over and I can do it on my own from now on. I was hurt and retaliated by saying he probably had someone waiting that’s why he wants out ( I know I shouldn’t of said this) anyway he then sat up grabbed the back of my hair and yanked me back, slapped me and spat in my face all while feeding our 5 month old. I just sat the absolutely stunned trying to protect the baby. He eventually just went and slept downstairs. This is the first time he has been physically abusive hes been verbally in the past.
now I know I need to leave, I know that and I will I do not under any circumstances want my children around that. But how??? Like literally how? I have no money, I can’t afford to live on my own. He pays rent and most bills, I am on Matt leave but the pay is shocking. The children have a very little age gap and it’s a struggle most days. What do I do and where do I go?
sorry long post and thank you for reading x