”D”P and I are expecting a baby in September this year. We don’t live together yet as our relationship is still quite new (couple of years) and I have a 17 year old DS from my previous marriage. I wanted to keep some stability for DS.
DP and I were starting to look at houses together as we would’ve liked to be living together by the time baby comes.
This weekend, we went to a gig 2 hours away and stayed in a hotel. We met up with 3 of his male friends when there and then they all started heavy drinking. I am still quite tired as I am only just out of my first trimester. I did tell him prior that I would need to reserve my energy for the gig. I was then walked around this city, freezing and exhausted from pub to pub before the gig started. I expressed that I wasn’t coping because all the bars were rowdy and busy. I was being knocked and there was nowhere to sit. I felt so vulnerable.
DP got in a huff, started marching us around the city again to find somewhere I could sit. He then made a comment to his friend about how he could “never do anything right” and I was mortified. I wanted to go back to the hotel.
Eventually we sat down for a bit, then went to the gig, where DP proceeded to get very drunk and smoked cigarettes right next to me (despite it being illegal in doors). We then left and I had to stand in the cold at midnight for an hour while we waited for a taxi. It was a horrible night.
After this I felt so depleted. I just feel so alone and unsupported in this pregnancy.
I made this known to him today and he kept asking whether I was leaving him. I told him I wasn’t sure what I wanted and hoped our conversation would shed light. Eventually, after saying he wouldn’t attend another gig tonight then backtracked, I was told to “fuck off”. I did tell him prior that I despaired and felt like I was done.
After telling me to “fuck off”, I blocked him. I feel like I deserve better than this. To me, this was disrespectful. I suspect he will still go to the gig as he wouldn’t want to let his friend down, but I feel like this will be the end for me if he prioritises the gig with her over coming to sort things with me.
I feel so low. I don’t know how to move forward. I guess I just needed to get this out. Thanks.