Hi everyone, looking for advice.
I broke up with my ex in December last year. It absolutely devastated me, I was head over heels for him and I absolutely didn't want it.
He said for various reasons that he needed time to himself and we could possibly try again in the future . He wasn't ruling us out entirely but he said he couldn't do it at the time.
After our breakup due
to all the emotions and upset he blocked me on all platforms and this has remained the same for the past 6 months..
I recently discovered he has unblocked me amd has kept me unblocked for a few days.
Naturally I got excited and saw him unblocking me as a positive sign and that he was open to communication. (Why else go to the trouble of unblocking someone?!) I'd been dying to speak him for the past 6/7months , it's all I've thought about. So when I saw he'd unblocked me I sent him a very short message 'How are you? Why have you unblocked me ?' No response from him.... so I sent another similar one in the evening and he said 'sorry for unblocking you , but can you leave me alone ? I don't want to talk '
As you can imagine I was absolutely crushed and shocked as to me him unblocking me meant he was at least open to the possibility of talking..
I was crushed and gutted and I messaged saying 'I've missed you so so much the past 7 months and I still care for you. So why have you unblocked me if you dont want to talk? ' He said 'I don't know why I unblocked you, I shouldn't have done it clearly. Leave me be , I don't want to talk. For christ sake ' and he blocked me.
I'm absolutely crushed. I feel like I'm right back to square one with my healing. I'm equally angry at him unblocking me as he knew it would give me false hope and set me back, and equally devastated as I realise that the past 7 months I've been missing him greatly every day and yet he doesn't want to even speak. :(
Anyone got any advice or hand hold ?
It honestly feels like losing him all over again. I've cried, can't sleep nor eat. It's feeling like back to day one. (And this could have been avoided him by not unblocking him!!)