Just want something bad to happen to me

[sunshinesummer24]

Just feel low

I have no family no friends I'm soo lonely the only good thing about my life is my children least I got that right.

Just wish something bad will happen to me just don't want to be here anymore.

Feeling so lonely must be horrible. Have you been feeling this way for a while or has something sparked this today?

Sorry to hear this op. Can you speak to your GP or self refer to your local talking therapies service?

I've felt like this for a while I just wish I had the guts to take my own life. My life has just been pain and suffering and even my kids would be better off without me

I'm really sorry you're feeling like this sunshine. We're here if it will help to share / talk more to us.
Also there is definitely support out there - have you considered speaking to your gp?

Your kids would never be better off without you. It would damage them for the rest of their lives.
I have been in your position and my kids are older now and they are very grateful that I held on. What you are feeling now is temporary. It will pass. Please reach out to the Samaritans or your GP or A&E if it feels overwhelming. People will want to help you.

So sorry you are feeling this way. It’s not forever. Feelings are transient and they DO change eventually. Well done for reaching out - that must have been hard. There are options. You can get out of this feeling. Pick up the phone and make today the day everything starts to change for you: https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/contact-samaritan/

Your kids wouldn’t be better off without you. Im not saying this to make you feel guilty, but to tell you that your kids love you, even if you aren’t well, and they would miss you terribly!

I'm just soo low. I'm soo lonely I don't know what to do with my life. I'm just a loser and I just want to sleep and not wake up. Life has been soo rough I just don't feel good enough for anyone. I'm just not good enough full stop. I know it sounds selfish but I just want it all to end now as I've had enough.

It takes courage to talk about this so it's good that you have shared how you feel on here.
I promise you that your children would not be better off without you.
When you talk about pain and suffering is it physical, emotional pain or both?

As someone whose Mum killed herself, I say with absolute certainty that your kids will not be better without you.

Make an appointment with your GP, tell them what you've been thinking and feeling, accept whatever help they can offer.

You really need to contact someone, Samaritans or mind would be a good starting place, better still your GP or urgent care centre, saw the devastation suicide has onfamilies through my job, kids truly aren’t better off without you

Please focus on your children, look at how brilliant they are and that's down to you!! If you can try to give your brain a rest about everything else -what I'd recommend which can be quietly quite powerful is to just write down 3 things each morning and 3 things each evening that you are grateful for, I have felt extremely low too in the past and this simple practice helped me.

My friend lost her mum when she was 10 and we are in our mid 40's now and it's still a massive loss for her. Sending so much love to you.

When life feels like wading through treacle it takes a huge amount of strength to get through each day. You have that strength, you're fighting on for the kids that love you.

Don't give up, and know that there are many, many people wishing that they could reach through the screen and give you a hug and hand you a coffee 🙂

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources.
You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

Your children are amazing and wonderful and you're the best mum for them, even when you feel low.
Please reach out to speak to someone or tell us more here if you like. We can listen too.

So sorry you are feeling this way. You sound very depressed. I know it doesn't feel like it now but depression is treatable and you will not always feel like this. Please get some help. You sound like a strong person despite your struggles. You can come out the other side of this.

I have been in that position - really feels like the end of the world and you do question if you are valued. However, despite how low you are (and I was) things will improve. Kids for example are a great reason not to do anything bad.

What I found helped was to have things to do / goals which prevented me from thinking seriously about doing anything. Like a little trip in 2 weeks, family holiday in a couple of months, then Xmas (would devastate people even more at that time), then things like birthdays and even DD GCSE exams, cant do anything then...

PM if you need to

Can I ask how old you are OP? Sorry I don't mean to pry but I felt like this a few years ago and I now know the feeling was very likely down to peri-menopausal symptoms

Sorry you're feeling like this, my lovely. Things will get better I promise. I know it doesn't feel like that now.

I'm 33. Just having a really low day and feel extremely lonely. Sometimes just wonder why I'm here.

Talk to us here op. Tell us about your children? You say you got that right. Tell us what's your favourite thing about them?

Just feel really lonely, don't have friends, don't really have family, just on my own all the time. Just don't feel good enough for the kids just feeling worthless and useless. 😔

What sort of emotional legacy would that leave for your children?

I know life can be relentlessly difficult, but try to remember that even if you can't see it at the time - nothing ever stays the same. There will be good times again, you will feel better in the future.

Try not to overthink, try to distract yourself with something positive.

It would be selfish. And that’s exactly why you haven’t done it. It’s why you’re on the internet asking for advice - because you don’t want to do this and you don’t want the person that inflicts life-changing pain on your children. The very fact you are reaching out shows you don’t want this for yourself and your children. Please get some help ASAP. Medication, talk therapy, social support etc could really help. If you are really honest about how you are feeling and make it clear the risk you are feeling people will help you. Please go see a dr

I’m sorry you are feeling this way OP.

I felt this way too and it turned out I was depressed.

Please go and see the gp and get some antidepressants.
They’re not a cure but they do help.

How old are your kids?
Do you have a break when they go school/nursery?
Does their dad ever have them?

Do you work?
I found getting a little PT job with people, really helped me get out of my depression.
I think it was having a routine, socialising and having some time away from being ‘just a mum’.