Please i don't want hate just real advice as I am really struggling at the minute. I have feeling for a man I work with. He is married and has 2 children. I am getting married soon and also have 2 children. We have worked together 2 years me being the newbie. I have felt there has always been a connection from the moment i started. Our first ever night out was a colleagues retirement party i went home early and he rang me in the early hours of the morning, I acted normal and it was never brought up after. Next was another party myself and him were the last ones there we live closer than everyone else so it makes sense for us to share a taxi, we ended up walking and talking for 2hours avoiding all taxis passing us by and had deep conversations nothing happend! Next was our end of year party he told me about the first time he hugged me he said boy I am in trouble and how great I am. He told me we should have a affair as our lives are same i am getting married and have 2 children, he is married! We had deep conversations about our childhoods and he has never told his wife what he shared with me, which made me feel honoured. There Is so much more to ad that I could be here all day, he will always go out of his way to speak to me in work when he could speak to other colleagues about said issues. We shared a kiss at our last work night and 8 stopped him and said you have a family and so do I so nothing can happen. When we where back in work we had a sober conversation and he said he doesnt remember any of it and that he loves his wife. I never want to have a affair or be the other women ever! But how do I get this man out of my head I can not stop thinking about him. I feel so down, did he ever feel the same way as me. He told me he can never leave his wife ( her family are rich, he came from nothing) school is out for 8 weeks so I won't see him. Maybe I loved the attention and my own relationship is lacking at the moment but how can I stop thinking about this man. Do you think he ever had real feelings for me? Or was is the drink talking? I want to go back to school not feeling like this as I will have to see him everyday! Help