A note to my DH (Yes I know you are snooping on my mumsnet activity from the other side of the world)

[TheDevilWearsPenneys]

I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall
You've been closing me in , closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading and watching us fall apart

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore

Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Beacuase I've tried, yes I've tried
Still I don't know why
No I don't know why

Why I can't explain why it's not enough
I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

There's a good reason I've been playing this song at full volume. It may sound trite but it sums it all up.

The worat ia I am half watching this video on repeat on youtube and weeping, then laughing out loud through tears at another thread.

God I am fucked up.

Hope you're ok TDWP.

Oh dear, DWP. I was just thinking about you.

I've been down so low people look at me and they know,
they can tell something is wrong
like I don't belong,
well, staring through a window standing outside there just to happy to care
and I want to be like them but I'll mess it up again,I tripped them out when God kicked outside everybody's soul.

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But i cant feel it right now,
I thought I was doing well but I just want to cry now,
Well I know that its a wonderful world from the sky down to the sea,
but I can only see when you're here, here with me.

Sometimes I feel so full that it just comes spilling out,
it's uncomfortable to see I give it away so easily,
who am I to dream, dreams are for fools, they always let you down.

Feck I feel like a teenager, but James Morrison should be my husband, he speaks my mind.

''but I can only see when you're here, here with me.''

Erase that line, obv.

Thanks for caring, tbh I now feel a bit numb about it all.

The flipside of absence makes the heart grow fonder?

Oh no turn it off and put on I will survive

No more music, I'm going for a hot bath with a book.

That song even makes me cry and it has no relevance to me..it's beautiful!

I have asked for this thread to be deleted

This was a serious P.U.I offence

www.risa.co.uk/sla/song.php?songid=21732

Wish You Were Here

Blimey Devil, couldn't you have sent that to his personal email account? And if he really does know your mn name - perhaps a name change is in order... hmm...

I blame the song!!

What's a PUI offence?

Hope you're ok Penny

Posting Under the Influence.

Like the American DUI (which can also be dialing under the influence, lol)

ah - I've done that!!