Conflicted feelings after night with teacher

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Hi mumsnet, kind of struggling with this, I (23) recently ran into my old English teacher at a bar (32). Things got very flirty, long story short we had sex. He’s messaging me asking for a date, which I really want to go on – because I used to have a massage crush on him (still definitely do).
There are some things that are making me torn,

1. He’s still a teacher
2. At the time I didn’t think he knew I had a massive crush on him, but when I told him he told me he knew
3. He made the first physical escalation (but I was flirty)

Obviously, I really want to go on this date with him, and I’d love this to be a crazy accident of fate – because I think he’s brilliant. He’s still just as smart and funny as I remember, and somehow better looking. I really enjoy talking about literature with him, which is something I’ve always struggled to connect with my previous boyfriends about, but I can’t shake the fact that he knew me when I was a teenager. Knew I had a massive crush on him while I was a child and preceded to have sex with me

Don’t get me wrong, it takes 2 to tango and I’m well aware of that, I was a willing participant and I’m not accusing him of anything non-consensual. I wan to go on this date but I’m not sure if that’s the inner schoolgirl, but there’s a little part of me that thinks maybe he might have done something bad – particularly the fact he’s still a teacher.

For the record I was a hideous teenager and had hideous acne, thick glasses, and braces, he never tried it on with me he was just very kind. I look very different now, but one thing that stuck out to me was that he told me he preferred me with glasses (which I don’t wear now)

I’m not sure if I’m overthinking it (I have a tendency to overthink), and I really want to go on this date, he’s the archetype of what I’ve always envisioned my perfect man to be. I really don’t know what to do, how much can one date hurt? Then I can decide after that, if I do go on the date with him is there anything I can ask him about?

Thanks in advance and please don’t be too harsh

No decent man, let alone teacher, would date a former pupil who is 10yrs his junior. It’s a big red flag.

Even the fact that the OP hasn't come back to this thread after asking posters to message them their fantasies experiences still isn't stopping people from sharing and approving the idea.

Ugh, some people are just beyond oblivious.

She left school at least 5 years ago! That is plenty of time to get over a silly crush. 23-years-old is plenty old enough to behave like an adult. Heck, 23-year-olds are working as doctors right now. It is not an age where immaturity is an excuse. If she is still feeling like a schoolgirl at 23-years-old then she needs to grow up. Any "power imbalance" is in her head. He is not senior or in authority over her in any way. Stop infantilising grown women.

You sound utterly clueless