My partner has finally admitted to being addicted to cocaine. Unknown to me it was the root cause of all our arguments over the last few years. Since admitting it & stopped it or so I’m lead to believe his attitude/temper has gotten worse. He’s unpredictable he got angry over burnt sausages yesterday. He’s normally very annoying but never short tempered & it seems to be getting worse. He’s also(what it seems/feels like to me) been doing everything to annoy me and/or get a reaction out me. 2 days before Christmas he says he’ll be back in half an hour, he “messed up” that night. Texts me the next morning saying he took stuff so he stayed out. Comes home the evening of Christmas Eve apologising saying it was stupid then says, “Christmas is on Tuesday isn’t it?” I say, “no it’s tomorrow” then starts yawning really loudly every 2 mins(we have a 6 month old together & I have a 10yo from previous relationship) I asked him if he was still high because he was being really loud & our daughter was sleeping. Starts calling me miserable saying he’s looking elsewhere to live. I continue wrapping presents & he goes to sleep on the couch. Christmas morning he’s holding our daughter. He hurry’s me to take her as he needs the toilet. I was trying to get her chair ready as she was going to get porridge but he continues to tell me to hurry up so I said, “RIIIIGHT” like that & I’ve apparently ruined Christmas & everyone’s annoyed at me. We were supposed to be going to his mums for dinner tells me he’s not going whilst sending me horrible messages from the other room. I ignore him as I’ve learned not to give him a reaction. A while passes he asks if I’m ready I said I thought we weren’t going he says fine be miserable & ruin every one’s day so I try & walk away & he starts saying, “see this is what you do start an argument then walk away.” Fast forward to Boxing Day he apologised for being grumpy then yesterday he asks if I could watch his sausages while he nips out. I switched them off after he left he comes back complains they’re burnt starts throwing the shopping about told me I was too busy on my phone & I burnt his sausages. I get upset & leave then phone his mum. I tell her I’m starting to become scared of him & that I don’t want to be with him so she phoned him I go back home he says he’ll leave(it’s never been that easy before & I'm keeping this very short & sweet so any confusion with anything just ask) he then starts crying saying he’s worried if he leaves that he’ll end up back in drugs because all his friends take stuff almost daily & that he wants to see our daughter grow up etc. I ask well what if you get angry again he said he would leave basically I end up feeling sorry for him. We both leave the house for a few hours & come back. Tonight I was getting our daughter to sleep I ask him to hold her while I grab the bonjela he says to her come & have some fun with daddy & starts swinging her about making her laugh I say she’s going to sleep he said, “is she?” Like he never knew. It was him that suggested I pause the film we were watching while I got her to sleep he knew fine well. Every time she’s napping he’s always really loud it’s as if it’s to annoy me but I don’t understand why he would disturb his child just to spite me. Every nap/bedtime he tries to stimulate her or wake her up by talking really loud/singing whistling/walking in the room to go in the wardrobe etc I find it very odd. After putting her to bed I go back through to the livingroom he says new year is on Sunday isn’t it I say yeah he says I’m going to go fishing Sunday night. I never said anything as I could not be bothered with another argument especially at night when I can’t leave the house I was just thinking to myself are you winding me up. I need perspective on this situation as when I speak to his mum she’s very much neutral saying things like well why are you with him if he’s so horrible & you’re scared of him saying she can’t give advice as it’s not her relationship etc I always say to her I know he’s your son I’m not phoning to snitch on him etc I just don’t have anyone to speak to about & I don’t know what to do she just says she doesn’t think we should be together & never says anything negative about him. I’m sorry for the long post & may not make sense as it’s heavily condensed this is a few days of 3 years of similar crap & yes I’m ready for the relationship to be over no I’m not completely stupid. I just want to understand why he’s maybe trying to go out his way to annoy me recently & why his temper is possibly getting worse if he was off stuff for 6 weeks minus 2 days before Christmas I would imagine it would get better not worse maybe someone else has been with someone addicted to drugs & shed some light.