Am I a prostitute?

[scarlatti]

Sorry - have namechanged as this is so shameful.
I have been in a (not totally legitimate) relationship which has had to cool off, but I still see the man occasionally for legitimate reasons. This week I had a lift from him and couldn't resist stroking his lap on the way home. He'd already told me he'd resist but didn't put up too much of a fight shall we say - and before we got home he'd unzipped himself, and we stopped off en route as we used to do so I could finish the erm.. 'job' (despite him declaring he had no intention for this to happen again).

I suppose I did it just to prove to myself that he still couldn't resist me, but I think I am kidding myself..
Just need some harsh words from MNers to answer this.. Am I just being stupid to carry on like this? Do men like this just think with their dicks? Tbh I feel a bit like an (unpaid) prostitute - but I genuinely felt happy afterwards that I had 'hooked' him again. Have seriously considered counselling.

Are you and or him attached to other people?

Nope. You're not a prostitute. He didn't pay you.

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FioFio that made me laugh too. I think I need to laugh at myself for being such a naive twat - but I am also really worried that I have a psychological problem.

You're not a prostitute but I wouldn't be happy with the one-sidedness of it tbh. Where was your satisfaction in all of this?! Did he not return the favour?

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It's just a slightly on-off affair, I would have thought. It sounds though like you feel a bit iffy about it. It might be one of those things where you just keep shagging without a relationship, which is ok as long as you feel ok about it.. but definitely not a prostitute!

This is perfectly alright as long as he isn't a taxi driver and had a passenger on board at the time.

No he did not return the favour - (we only had 3 minutes in the car park ) but my pleasure was just from knowing (or deluding myself) that I still had some power over him.

Any abandonment issues ?

Winnie that made me smile. To clarify - he had said recently that he didn't feel right doing this anymore and had promised himself it wouldn't happen. On the night in question - he pretty much just forgot all that. We have slept together before when we had the opportunity so it's not all totally one sided. He's a good looking bloke with a good life - that's what makes me question what I am to him? And what I am??

Power?
Power is when a man allows you to suck his knob.
Fuck me, I have enough power to run the country.

abandonment issues? sorry being thick - did you mean have I been abandoned in past?

You are only a prostitute if you swallowed.

Could you ask Dave later, get a bloke's viewpoint?

VS - that's just the kind of thing I needed to hear. Thank you

prostitute - no.

but you have definitely cheapened yourself for this man - good god where is your self respect!

how can you think its having power over him? its the other way around. of course hes not going to turn a blow job down, from ANYONE.

Yup.. have you been abandoned in the past ?

agree with hifi. This doesn't make ypu have any power over him, it just shows that his penis has power over him.