I know this is going to sound stupid but I feel a fraud for what I’m about to write. My friends think I’m in an abusive relationship but I’m struggling to see it - I think I know deep down I am but every time I tell myself it’s not who he really is….plus other people go through so much more.
I thought maybe if I listed some things that happen to me then maybe other people could help me to see it or tell me if it’s normal ….
- Name calling slut, slag , if you dressed better I’d take you out more, no one else will want you, why would I want to commit to ‘that’
- When we argue he loses his temper - pushes me, hands round my throat , damages my belongings and threatens to damage. This isn’t very often.
- Makes me jump through hoops to progress our relationship.
- Causes arguments before I go out.
Theres more but these are some of the main things. He just has this way with of making it feel my fault - like i made him angry enough to do those things. I don’t know what it is but I just can’t muster up enough strength to leave my home and get away. He has moments when he’s nice , considerate and feels like he genuinely cares but it’s never consistent.