Made a mistake on the weekend and can't live with the guilt

[roldog]

Please be gentle on me as I am already beside myself about this.

I was very drunk on Saturday night while out with my boyfriend and our friends. One of the boys who we are friends with ended up chatting to me for a good while, I see him as a good friend but obviously nothing more. It must have gotten quite flirty and he kissed me. Everyone was talking about it and I obviously told my boyfriend, but again I was very very drunk so don't remember the complete full story.

I am now feeling so so shit about myself. To the point I have decided to go sober and completely give up drinking. I love my boyfriend so much and losing him would be the worst thing ever. I just feel like the worst person in the world I hate myself right now.

I don't even know what im looking for with this post, but just wanted to vent to someone 😢

Then I don't see that your behaviour with his friend was to be faulted. He kissed you when you were too drunk to be fully aware, and so took advantage of you. You stopped him immediately.
Its his friend your BF should be having a problem with, not you.
You're vulnerable if you're that drunk though so you're wise to cut back.