Not overly sure why im doing this post as ive seen some comments people get sometimes but i have noone to talk to so please be kind as il crumble i think.
Me and my husband have been together many years and married for many more, we're in our late 30s and have always had the best relationship and sex life until recently, id say it all started november/december time. His attitude towards me has completely changed, he's not bothered about my feelings if he upsets me etc. last week was the first time in our marriage i cried, he didnt care. He's started making comments to purposely upset me and i dont know what i've done wrong to deserve this, i really cant pinpoint anything at all. his job consists of him working some weekends and sometimes its 2 plus hours away but he always use to come home, always said he'd drive 4 hours to sleep in bed with me (not sexually) even if it meant him going back the next day, id always tell him not to be daft and get a hotel but he'd walk through the door just to be with me, just recently he's started staying over, long weekends, one night etc. even if the place is close by he'll stay. Go out at night and ignore my phonecalls & texts or send a quick message late at night then i wont hear from him, as petty as it sounds il check to see when he was online or on facebook and hes active or has been.
I've obviously tried to ask him whats happened and if everything is ok but he just gets angry and makes it seem like im the problem, then i sit and wonder if i am? and just dont realise? I dont have any family support apart from my dad but he's not someone i would talk to about this, sadly the rest of my family are no longer around so as you can imagine i feel pretty lonely. He's the earner, i stay home with the kids so he can pursue his career, his hours are all over the place so finding a job to work around his would be difficult, specially with the childrens school holidays etc. as childcare isnt available. So im pretty stuck if it came to him saying he doesnt want to be with me anymore and its pretty scary, if i was alone i'd get on with it but i have beautiful children to keep safe and happy and it breaks me into a million pieces knowing that i'd struggle to provide for them alone. I feel ridiculously sad & broken, i sit thinking about how amazing we were back in the summer and replay the days and weeks wondering where the hell i messed up for him to be like this!
Sorry for the long rant, theres not really anything to reply to i just needed to write it down i suppose.
Have a lovely evening x