Hi lovely people,
I’ve been with my partner for 10 years and we have an 8 yr old. He is a good man and a good father (when he’s around). We moved from a place I was really happy in when DC was born so he could start his own business. The trouble is he puts all his time and energy in his business. The business has never been successful and I get that he is working hard to provide for us. I work full time and my job pays for the mortgage, food and he pays utility bills etc… He smokes and then has no money to do anything with us. He works 6 days a week and takes 1 week off at Christmas. We never have sex, when he’s home he falls asleep on the sofa. The town we moved to is really cliquey and it’s been a slog to make friends who aren’t all takers and I am just really sick of my life here and I feel like he’s abandoned me and our child (I know I am being really dramatic). I’m struggling to see the point of my relationship we are more like housemates than anything else.
Ive done a lot of work on myself since lockdown, sorted out childhood pain of being raised by emotionally unavailable parents and I just feel like I deserve a relationship with someone who cares for me and wants to spend time with me- I could care less whether his business is successful or not- I would be happier if he worked in supermarket if I got to see him more and felt valued by him. I’m really close to walking out, moving somewhere I would be happier and perhaps he would have more quality time with DC if we weren’t living together and he only saw her at weekends. But then appreciate life as a single parent is super hard. Ahhhhh what do I do!