Tell me to get a grip please

[INeedAGrip]

Have been in a on off casual relationship for the last year. I have now finally called things as it was getting too much for me to handle. I want stability not a hot/cold semi boyfriend.

I feel surprisingly upset and I need to pull myself together. I won't contact him and I know him well enough to know that I'm not going to hear from him either.

But I need to get a grip. I can see he is online and I'm feeling jealous FFS. I'm a grown woman. I need to put this to bed. It's been a long time coming.

I like my new vision of the future better to be honest, as it is one where I survive whatever it brings, whereas the old vision of the future was one where if it didn't happen that way I was f**ked.

You'll do just fine without the fantasy cottage.