Been on my own for 8 years (widowed). In that time I've been doing OLD, had a FWB, ONS (not set out for it deliberately though) , numerous dates and not liked anyone, realisations men were married , been stood up, lied to, and now I don't know what I want anymore ! I veer between reading threads on here and being grateful I'm on my own but knowing deep down I'm lonely - does anyone else feel like this ?! I'm 50 next year, both kids will be at uni and I don't know what I'm doing ?!!!!!