I’m really upset
i posted a week ago about me and my boyfriend
we had a huge massive row and he broke up with me and blocked me from fb etc
always the same old stort
anyway we spoke and we discussed some issues and he said on the week I’ve got my kids he wants to start going out with his friends for a beer etc
and feels like why should I sit in and miss out because u got your kids every other week
he said why should I suffer for your mistake
ok abit harsh words but I accepted it
he said I’m a man I need to go out for beers with my friends
when you have your week without the kids I’ll take u out and won’t leave u at home alone and when u got the kids I’m gonna go out for some beers with my friend
i just accepted it and said ok
since that we’ve been really good
ive seen the old spark return from his side
and it’s been like the honeymoon period all over again
than today I’m still blocked on his fb he never unblocked me since we fighted
and I saw him uploading a story showing off topless
and yes I felt jealous because he has 5k friends loads girls on there
he use to be a player and he use to say I won’t post stories cos so many girls heart my story it’s not fair on u (his words what bitches they are)
anyway I confronted him about it today which went Pete tong
he went mental it’s my fb it’s not your business what I post and who ever is spying for u tell them to f off
he said I don’t care about girls hearting my story
and I said well I do care
and he said it’s my fb shut up
it turnt really nasty
he said I was getting good with u again but u ruin it
u don’t give me my space I don’t know if I want u
i said I accepted u want to go out with mates and things tho I’m not allowed to go out partying with girls cos I’m a women and it’s not the same in his eyes
and I said so I got to accept u showing off to and girls all hearting your story
no I have my limits too I’m not a walk over
he said shut up
i don’t care
its my fb I post what I want
he told me to apologize for ruining his night
i told him once I posted a story of me and my friend after not seeing her for years and u didn’t like it
and had to post stories after to get 1 up on me
he said u was showing off blah blah blah
and I said well least I said sorry and removed it
not like u telling me it’s not my business and being unreasonable
than he said he’s going out if I want to coke for a beer
and of course I do as he says
he was quiet the whole time we was out
as always there’s always girls he been with where ever we go but I turn a blind eye to it
than on the way home he said shall we get a pizza and I said no I want to keep my figure in good shape cos I’m really self conscious about putting weight on I use to suffer with being under weight and I’m still scared to go up but that’s another story
and he turns round and says yes it’s better because your gonna be single soon and u will need that small body for men to fuck u because that’s all there want u for is for your body cos no one will love u like I used to
there just use u
i felt so upset
than he turnt the music up and it was James blunt goodbye my lover
and he was singing to it loud joking grabbing my face saying goodbye asshole and laughing
but I felt so sad like your just taking the piss out of me
and he thinks he’s so clever trying to grab my face saying goodbye asshole
and I snapped I went mental and told him to F off and he said omg u can’t take a joke
i said all u do is make me feel shit about myself
he was saying I’m joking take a joke
omg can’t joke with u now
than was laughing saying u changed me
cos a few months ago I text a male friend I’ve known for years
asking for advice why my boyfriend treats me bad at times
and I deleted the conversation cos I was scared he see me moaning
and than 1 day he bumped into my friend and he told him I text him moaning
which basically caused me a huge headache
man’s my boyfriend can’t get over it
and brings it up every time we argue
says I cheated on him cos I text a friend who’s a man about him n hid the textes
and says I changed him
but it’s ok to have a women round your shop for a coffee who tried to kiss u
oh But that’s ok cos it was at the beginning
or the time I waited for him to come mine before I moved in with him and he stayed out till 8am fucked off his head while I sat up waiting
and once I had a line with his friends I know please don’t bash me for it
but I went in the toilet with his friends who we was with while he was walking my friend to the car to get her bags n get a taxi
yet I still get grilled for that to this day
how dare u go with 2 guys without me
u look a whore
i only known him 3 weeks
but again that’s wrong
but a women coming for a coffee to your shop cos u said ok on the phone after knowing me for 3 weeks n trying to snog u
thats ok
anyway
when we got home today he said I’m only joking
if u get down on your knees and show me how much u love me I’ll forgive
I didn’t want to
but went down for him to keep him happy
im thinking to pack my bags tomorrow and go while he’s at work
i just want reassurance I’m doing the right thing
or does he have points to be angry at me and I am to blame for his behavior