I’ve been in a relationship for the last two years. According to him he feels the same as me, in that he’s never had something so amazing and feels so spiritual and special together. We never run out of things to talk about, we are alike in many ways. In some ways we are not. There is a huge double standard in the relationship in that he will never be questioned on anything and requires “blind trust”. I am pretty easygoing but I admit I do have some triggers with how open he is about his attraction to others and discussions about that. I’ve even indulged him with fantasy, but sometimes it feels a bit all consuming and invasive. It is not a problem until he seriously gives me reason to believe I am of little value to him, when he walks away. A few times over the last couple of years he has started a big fight with me and then ended it for a couple of months, resisting all attempts to heal it, and writing off all we share as “a toxic combination”. The first time it’s because he was convinced I fancy his friend who I met once in a zoom he invited me to. No matter how much I explained this was not the case, and I am intensely loyal and wrapped up in the person I love, he gave me hell about it and still brings it up. I didn’t even talk on the zoom. His reason was I was sitting too close to the camera. I haven’t spoken to this man, yet he insists I have his number and must have contacted him. He himself believes hiding stuff is not an issue in a relationship and he would tell other women he’s attracted to them but take it no further, and not tell me. This is an example of how he thinks. I am uncomfortable with any form of deceit or line crossing in a relationship. I’m sorry this is long. So he’s ended it with me again. For the last six months things have been amazing between us, we hardly ever argue. He attempts to sometimes with starting something and I back off from it. But this time my nan was dying in hospital. I’m part of a group that does charity work and having only shared my nans impending death with him for years, months, weeks, she was at a critical stage where she had only days to live. So I shared it to the group and even told him about it. A few days later he sent me a sarcastic message saying “now your big group will feel so sorry for you, at least you have their sympathy” I said not to say this, that I shared it for prayer (many are Christian’s) and to give my family comfort and to let them know why I wouldn’t make an event that week. He said he had been told by one of them I was so cut up on the group sending voice messages and everything, I said no this isn’t true, my message was to the point, I’m not someone that shares my emotions much, I said the voice messages where about an event and the details for it. He said I’m a lying manipulative b* who always twists the truth. I don’t. The truth is really important to me. I discovered the person who he said told him this in fact hadn’t spoken to him for over two weeks, so him lying really triggered me, attacking me and lying, so This time I actually lost it with him, I said some really nasty things back, called him a piece of s** and accused him of probably wanting to be with some other woman and fight starting with me. I know what I said was actually unforgivable and took it to new levels. I am frustrated by how good it is and then he starts this thing where apparently I have a problem with the truth. Anyway he has resisted all attempts to heal it and my attempts to say what I just couldn’t tolerate. He has only apologised for being nasty when my nan was dying, not the content of what he said. A few days later with harassment from him my nan died and a few days have since passed. He said I’m not the kind of woman he wants to be with and has made me feel like I want to die, I am a loyal and faithful person, I don’t seek attention or lie and he’s made me feel lower than low. How can someone go from everything being wonderful to full on unexplainable assault like this? We chat every evening usually and now he’s ignoring me apart from a few nasty messages in the day, I feel shellshocked like I just came off some kind of battlefield. He won’t acknowledge any wrongdoing and says he doesn’t care if we never speak again. I have been emotional and sent lots of messages ranging from being confused, to defensive and like I don’t care, to trying to resolve it, I know that hasn’t helped the situation, but I am incredibly messed in the head over it. It took over my thoughts those last days of my nans life. Just wondering what others thoughts are on this kind of personality type and how I get past this. Im struggling.