He has stormed out AGAIN in a temper

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Don’t even know what to say or where to start.

Just wanted to not feel alone and upset again

I remember the post about your bum and I will tell you now what I told you then. It’s not about your bum. It’s about keeping you insecure and therefore dependent on him for any scraps of affect or love. And he knows exactly what he is doing. He didn’t tell you he didn’t like your bum because it’s the honest truth of what he thinks, he told you to hurt you and keep you compliant. He is an abuser. You are being abused and your kids are witnessing it all.

I put up with control and coercive behaviours for years. I love where I am now. I didn’t think I’d manage because I’d been made to forget who I was. It took a while but I am once again strong and happy.

Get a pedicure - the foot rub is included. Whatever this is isn’t worth it.

He’s an inadequate man who is using you as an emotional punchbag.
He’s abusive to you.
You can and need therapy for YOU.
You probably had a shit childhood?
When he left and you where screaming - it sounds like abandonment issues coming up - most likely from your childhood.
You need to stop focusing on him and dancing to his chine - listen very clear - WHAT YOU DO FOR HIM WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH - hence the changing your bum to please him - You need to develop YOUR worth - your value of yourself is based on how he sees you and treats you.
Please see - your needs don’t matter to him - it needs to be all about him.
Begin to focus on yourself. Good luck

Have you anyone you can speak to in real life?