I cant piece this together in my head. Need outside perspective. Me and dps sex life has never been brilliant. We had dc a year ago and since then my sex drove took a plummit. Dp would still try to have sex and complained about the lack of it. We tried to get our feet back from it but for a while now ive noticed dp hasnt bothered to initiate sex. If he ever does its when he is half asleep and tries to have a minimal effort quickie then go back to sleep. It makes me feel like it could really be anyone that does the job for him and im just being used to satisfy himself. I brought it to his attention and he just muttered something about contraception. Its true we dont have anything lined up right now but it never bothered him before. It feels like a cop out and a good excuse to hide behind. When i pointed out to him there are other things we can do dont invovle risk of pregnancy he didnt have much to say. He never does foreplay on me. Its been a long going issue of mine. I used to always give him random bjs. But with me he just grabs me downstairs and expects me to be ready without any warming up.
This is starting to get depressing. Im trying to express and communicate my problems but he either tries to turn it into a light hearted joke or comes up with some half arsed excuse then it gets brushed under the carpet. I dont even know why im trying so hard. He was the first one to complain about my lack of sex drive ( because of hormones bfing ect) and now im actually trying to step up and for what.
I feel like a fool.
Im only in my early twenties. I feel like im being wasted on.