Sorry that this is probably going to be a bit long and rambling, but I'm disappointed and upset, and questioning my relationship.
I pinched a nerve earlier in the week (I think my sciatic nerve), and I've been constantly really uncomfortable/in active pain for the last couple of days. I'm struggling to get around, can't bend over and certain positions send my back into spasm. The pain is also in my leg, making it weak, so I'm a little shaky on my feet too.
I'm incredibly rarely ill, and I'm trying to do as much as I can for myself, but I just need 10 seconds of help here and there to pick something up that's on the floor/too low down for me to reach without being terrified I'm going to keel over.
Sadly, my partner seems genuinely annoyed by the whole thing, like it's affecting him more than it's affecting me. He's made a couple of "jokes" about me getting an Oscar, as if he thinks I'm hamming up how much pain I'm in.
This morning, I needed the toilet. At the moment, it's a very undignified affair involving me squatting because I can't sit on the loo comfortably (sorry if this is TMI, but if you're ever struggled with sciatica, you know how it is). I had to call him in to hand me a fresh toilet roll, and then again a few moments later to hand me something else that was on the floor. He made some comment about not wanting to see my "sh*tty arse" and why couldn't I have asked for both things the first time. He also said something like "it isn't fair what you're doing to me", which I guess is a nod to how it's not exactly sexy to see your partner in such a way. Trust me, I have no desire to be in this situation and feel really vulnerable having to ask for help and being seen at pretty undignified moments. He's now ignoring me, and doesn't respond if I say anything to him.
I just don't feel that he's being very compassionate or understanding. When he's been physically hurt and struggling, I've rallied around after him without complaint. I even do it if he's just feeling tired after a long week. If he was in this position, I'd feel bad for him and help at any opportunity I could without any desire to make him feel guilty.
Honestly, it's really making me question the relationship - how can he be OK making me feel guilty for asking for a little bit of help and seem so unsympathetic and lacking understanding? It also makes me worry about the future when we're older/if I developed a health condition. Am I overthinking this and being unreasonable?