Just that really. Has anyone been through something like this? I think it's going to be the end of my marriage. Feel really low.
I've never had a high sex drive. I am a CSA survivor. It's been worse since I had my baby - traumatic birth and PND. We haven't had sex since baby was born 13 months ago. I can't even 'make' myself do it anymore - just zero interest and feel like I don't know what I'm doing. I thought it was just tiredness but baby sleeps pretty well these days, although still don't get much time to myself for obvious reasons. Don't really feel like myself still, just a Mum.
I very occasionally have sexual thoughts but on the whole very very fleeting. It's like that part of me has just died. For example I recently downloaded a new audio book and there's quite a bit of sex in it. It makes me feel very uncomfortable and I had to stop listening. I was never like that before - it might not have particularly interested me but it wouldn't have made me so awkward that I would have to turn it off. It's happening with any hint of romance in TV etc too.
My husband has been pretty reasonable with me about it. Like he hasn't pressured me or anything like that. But he's told me he can't see how we can last like this and that it was a problem even before we had a baby / got married 
I never thought it was like that. Oh I feel so sad and don't know what to do.