I've just self sabotaged myself by not applying for a promotion at work for a middle management position. I've had so many put downs about my abilities from various people over the years I still doubt I can do things.
I've had a few low days thinking back to when this all started in childhood. I'm well qualified and experienced and I'm being ridiculous.
I've decided to be more determined and not let things stand in my way in future. I'm feeling angry now about the way I've been treated. Just wanted to vent I guess.