Maybe I'm having fomo and completely jealous that partner has the ability to go out and I post this question knowing full well I run the risk of sounding like a complete control freak!(which he likes to call me)
So here goes...
My partner and I had a baby under one month ago. I am breastfeeding so I haven't left the house much unless it's been to take a short walk or I went to the sweetshop once.
My partner goes to work and also has popped out for a long walk at least twice a week.
Before I carry on my partner likes to do cocaine occasionally which I hate and we have argued a million times over the times he comes home etc. O I always get this feeling of doom when he goes out fear he will do coke or not come home when he says.
As we all know the euros are on and on Tuesday he went out with his friends watched it checked in with me and came home at a reasonable time before 9 which I was soo pleased about. I also asked him if he did coke or not which he said no which I kind of believe we he was just slightly drunk when he came back.
So the match is today and yesterday he asked my if it was ok if he went to the match. I didn't say yes or no but the look on my face pretty much said no. Again we got into an argument about me trying to dictate his life he got really moody and shouty etc. My point was kind of like don't ask me then if you are going to guilt trip me into saying yes.
Today's match is at 8pm which in my head makes him more likely to do drugs, not stick to his word, get more drunk, etc... leaves me probably overnight with the babies which I don't mind but I just will not be able to get over that feeling of if he says he's coming back at a time he probably won't. Of he just stuck to his word I would be fine.
I think I also feel that yes the euros only comes round once a year but there are so many sacrifices I have had to make with baby so he should make some too!
Thank you to anyone that takes the time out to respond !!!