Ending relationship but holidays booked what should I do?

[notmrscookie]

Been together 16 months but have never had sex as he just isn’t into it and refuses to talk about it . So I need to end it for my mental health as it isn’t what I want However I like holidays and book early to budget and get accommodation that’s nice so I have booked
3nts Kent 85 total August
5nts sept (ferry paid jointly)
4nts December 200
8nts Northumberland June
8 nts Wales August

I have paid upfront or on installements for these

However we were supposed to go to Edinburgh next month but it’s been cancelled and the event ticket are on hold for priority rebook. These were his birthday present so he can keep them I have paid for flights fir us both 125 each but happy to give him his ticket and then change mine to another date .

The issue is the ferry ticket I am happy for him to go but he needs to pay for the accommodation or I go and give him half the ticket back

Am I being mean ?

No, you're not being mean at all. What you propose sounds fine, let him keep his bday present, change your flight, then can you just pay him back for his share of the ferry tickets?

Whats more important to you, your mental health or your holidays? If you go with him then theoretically your stringing him along as he's being dumped when the holidays are done. Can understand that the majority of people don't wish to be in a sexless relationship in which case be up front and honest with him and tell him how you feel. If he still wishes to accompany you as a companion on these trips that's his choice.