I'm pregnant again after losing our DD to neonatal death in January.
Had some light bleeding early on so early pregnancy saw me. HcG more than doubled in 48 hours. Scan the following week confirmed what I thought originally - It's twins.
I usually start feeling God awful tired and sick around 6.5/7 weeks. This time I've been horrendously tired and emotional since week 5. Not quite 6 weeks yet and the nausea has begun.
DH insists I don't tell anyone about this pregnancy until 12 weeks, so I'm going around feeling like death but can't say anything and have to pretend. I'm so tired I can hardly see straight. My body aches. I feel run down
H is insisting I improve my diet and eat more nutritious foods, ensure I'm drinking more than enough water, etc etc. He thinks it'll give me a better chance of this pregnancy being successful (lots of loss before DD too). But it's hard. I just feel like crap
Said to H this evening I'm going to Asda for some lollies, I feel really sick. He said you're 5 minutes pregnant 
aren't you being a bit silly? I said early pregnancy is the most awful.. it's really hard. For some reason even harder earlier on this time. He sighed and said alright then. I ended up getting emotional, saying I feel unsupported by him. Said I was disappointed. He said 'oh no, don't be disappointed' in a sarcastic voice.
Came back and he asked what lollies I got. Then said he wanted one. Brought him one and he said this isn't enough, I need at least 2 to start with!
I said please don't eat them all, I'm very sick and they help the nausea. He made a 'shrug' face of maybe I will, maybe I won't. I then lost it and started crying, saying how could he do this, you're going to sit there eating them all aren't you?! He said I didn't say that.
I said I feel so unwell and he's being shit. I couldn't help myself and burst into tears. Went upstairs. Not a peep from him.
If someone I loved was crying like that, hormonal or not, i would check they're okay. But it's like it's just not a concern
We have an autistic son that gets up at the crack of dawn, but usually we take turns getting up. Except on his day to get up, he usually takes forever to accept he needs to get up! And what's more, if it's an awful start, I have him all day most of the time, unless he's at nursery. He's very high needs. He just doesn't seem to get the extent of how hard it is right now because of this pregnancy
I feel like I don't want to be pregnant. I feel unsupported and dismissed as a drama Queen. All I do is worry the pregnancy is safe whilst simultaneously feeling like I'm dying from being so unwell due to the hormones. It's very hard.