Ive been single for 7 months now. Got 3 kids and I was happy at being single, no sex, no fuss just me and my kids.
I got chatting to a friend who ive known for a while, told him ive gone off men and not looking for another relationship. He said hes happy single also, just misses a cuddle in the evenings.
He came round to mine to help with a home emergency and left, he invited me to his one weekend and I ended up staying the night. Since then he comes over a couple nights a week after the kids have gone to bed, we watch a film and he goes...we cuddle up on couch and on a couple of occasions we have had sex. We have been sort of fwb for about 3 months. We both made it clear from the off we are happy single and wont be taking it further. We message everyday and we have been on a couple of walks together. Hes a gent and doesnt expect sex at all.
However, I dont want to have it at all with him or anyone for that matter. Hes a nice friend, but im not sexually attracted to him, so why am i having sex with him??! It makes me feel dirty thinking about it like that. But I dont know what or how to tell him. Hes lovely and had helped me with certain things loads but I just feel il be throwing all that in his face if I 'end things'