Background. I was seeing my ex for two years, we met at work. We were good friends before we started seeing each other. He was recently separated so I treaded carefully. He had been with his wife for twenty years. She had an affair hence the split.
The two years were rocky. He wouldn’t commit to being official, he blew hot and cold, he cancelled a lot. The times we spent together were amazing. Intense romance. He was always honest and said he couldn’t give me what I wanted at that moment etc...one day he rejected me when I went to kiss him and he said his wife wants to give it another go but he still really likes me and wasn’t sure what he wanted. I ended it.
He got back with his wife and I barely spoke to him for a whole year. I saw other people and I’m with someone lovely now.
For the first time in a year I spoke to ex. Told him how I resented him for hurting me but I still cared about him. He apologised and said he was low at the time and he’s still low now, he’s depressed and unhappy. That was that really and he said if I wanted to talk then that’s cool.
Today is my birthday and he’s either forgot or he’s just chose to ignore it.
I’m hurt. I feel worthless. I wasted two years on him. I have fertility issues and I wasted two fucking years. I don’t want him back or anything but I just feel hurt at how little he cared compared to what I gave him.
I’ve cried and felt sad on my birthday and he’s a piece of shit, but I still feel sad.
Just ranting really.