This might seem a bit trivial really but it's really getting to me!
Everywhere I go, people I meet, I never feel like I really fit in.
At the school when I pick up my DD's, everyone is friendly, polite etc when I talk to them but no-one seems to go out of their way to talk to me. DS1 is now 8 so I have known these people a long time. I occasionally ask them round (very occasionally) and they come and all is fine but I never really get invited back, I mean, they say I'll have to go round but then never actually ask me! If I ask them a favour they are always happy to help but I don't seem to fit in their little 'cliques' like everyone else and I think it's cos I lack confidence myself.
For example, I will walk down from the school not having seen anyone, get in the car and then see them all standing chatting together. How do I miss them all?
I was bullied at school and I now I never really have the confidence or even expect people to like me.
I do have a handful of good friends outside the school who bother with me a LOT, and we visit often. Say about 3-4 friends I see weekly/fortnightly outside of the school.
But whether it's the school,work and even family I never feel I fit in properly. I feel like people are just being pleasant and polite but don't actually want to get close to me. I feel sad for my DD's because they don't seem to have the friends round etc that they would if I was better friends with the parents, which would make it easier. So I feel guilty to them.
I never argue or fall out with anyone, I just feel that I know loads and loads of people for a polite chat with at the school but no-one to really have a good old gossip with!
Anyone else feel they don't fit in anywhere, or have any good advice??