I've been on and off for over 2 years with my partner things did get quite bad.
His 14 year old daughter has caused problems for a year the attitude doing bad things she shouldn't outside the home and at school and my 11 Yr old sons got tangled up in some bits at school so shes made him lie to save her skin.
But there is a whole lot more that's gone on as he was controlling for most of it and in Lockdown things got worse but now don't give a dam as I am not doing what he wants as I've got stronger but it was bringing me down that I've had to seek help.
I went on a course called the freedom course which has helped me alot but now it's getting unbearable.
Unfortunately he has been looking after his father who is terminal since beginning of Feb and its hard to support him, I'm enjoying the days me and my 2 children are alone. But he wants us to stay at his dad's house again but I can't bring myself to go back as he picks and talks to me like crap even infront of his dad, I know he must be hurting so much I just feel like I'm his emotional punch bag.
I tried taking a step back as a few weeks back he said to me he wished I had the cancer not his dad.
I felt so hurt and sick to the stomach as I'd never wish that on anyone. This is not the first time he has been mean as its normally calling me names when he is angry.
Now I don't know how to support him as when I have, I have got the brunt of his anger and upset and if I don't he rings me constantly saying I'm not supporting him enough.
Everything I do is wrong and I feel like I'm walking on eggshells and I haven't got the energy to do it anymore but he is saying I need to support him as his dad is dying and I should be there for him no matter what and we will sort us after his dad passes.
The end of Last year I asked him and his daughter to leave but he refused and said he can't afford being on his own and he needs to pay the car off so I just feel stuck I know we can't go on like it but he isn't listening to me.
I feel so trapped in my own home and can't see it getting any better.