Ok, just wondering if any of the lovely people on here could help. Just need some advise from outside an point of view...
So a little bit of history.....about 10 years ago I met this this guy through friends on regular nights out, ill admit I had a crush on him back then but we never hung out outside of these nights out. We would say hi etc if our paths crossed at any other time but that was all. Eventually the nights out stopped so rarely seen him at all. Fast forward to a year and half ago....he's at my work doing a bit of shopping and we bump into each other and chat for 5 or 10 mins etc say we should catch sometime blah blah about half hour after he leaves I get a Facebook friend request from him and we start chatting on there, this goes on for a few weeks then he invites me round to his for a coffee, watch a film and catch up, I go and all is well until I go to leave....I hug him a hug as I'm leaving and thank him for the invite and as I'm pulling away he kisses me, like a proper kiss on the lips. I was shocked for a second but them I kissed him back. So there we are in the hallway for ages but goes no further than kissing, I then go home. The same thing happens for maybe 5 weekends in a row we kinda chatted about stuff, I told him I liked him he said he liked me too, I got the impression he wasn't ready for anything (he went through a bad break up) then it just kinda stopped, I don't remember why but it just did. So then kinda went quiet between us and eventually to nothing at all......Fast forward again to maybe 4 months ago and he's at my work shopping and we talk for a few minutes then when he leaves I get a Facebook message and we chat, it's not always everyday though then he brought up when I used to go round and the kissing etc and how he would of went further but he didn't want to be pushy or know how far he could go, we flirted back and forth but I though nothing of it really. He then kept mentioning about me coming round again and watching a film etc.......so I went round and we watched 2 films and chatted through both of them and as I was leaving it was late and he started to say something and leaned in and kissed me, just like what happened before. it went a little bit further this time though. Hands were wandering more etc. Then well to put it plainly I was touching him and pretty much gave him a hand job while we were kissing and he only lasted about a minute or 2 at a push before he came, we carried on kissing and but in a more soft way and he kept smiling at me between kisses. So he goes and cleans himself up an when he gets back he asks me for directions to my house so jokingly ask if he was planning a visit and he reply with maybe yeah, kissed again and then I left......we messaged the next day but it was of general stuff nothing really other than he was nervous the night before (I could tell cos he was shaking ) but that's pretty much it he didn't bring up anything that happened. So I'm kinda confused cos I don't know what he wants or even if he wants anything or it was just him getting off and that was it......confused 🙄