Been with a guy for perhaps 18 months now. Very intense relationship, looking back there was love bombing at the beginning from his side but things quickly calmed down and we got into a less intense pattern as time went on. Things seemed great, and over the past month we had been talking more about the future and what we'd like to do post lockdown. Started planning a trip together and talking about potentially moving in if things were still going well at the end of the year.
Last night he told me he loved me, had never loved anyone like he loved me, was excited for our future etc etc. He's not very good with words so this was a special moment between us. I told him I felt the same, everything was good.
This morning I received a text message saying he wanted to break up. No other woman apparently, he just doesn't want to carry on the relationship. Says it's not me it's him blah blah. I tried to call but he won't answer and says it's best to end it now. He doesn't want to hurt me but feels it's best to end things now before they get too deep. Maybe our talk of the future scared him but I'm fucking heartbroken and so hurt at the way he ended it.
He says he's doesn't want to be friends and would rather we don't talk again. I've asked him seriously if there is another woman on the scene and he says no.
I need a handhold badly as I live alone, supposed to be working from home today but feel rotten. Can't stop crying.
I'm 32. Please tell me this gets better.