Would love some support please

[Indianafrankie]

Ok, so have had a couple of posts on here recently about my joke of a relationship and decided that enough is enough and today I have finally ended it. No more lies and cheating and secrecy, I can’t take it anymore and realise I do indeed deserve better. At the moment I am completely on my own apart from my children - literally have no support here at all and would appreciate a hand hold from anyone who has a moment, sorry I know that sounds crazy but I’m in another country and literally going it alone now...thanks

Ah I’ve picked a choice few too in my time, this one was a compulsive liar. a sex addict, a gaslighting narcissist, delusional and something I can’t even think about at the moment, safe to say all of these things were not on my list for qualities in a good partner, I’m trying to eat if nothing else to prove him wrong as he told me I wasn’t normal in our very last conversation x

Morning. It's strange isn't my ex is all those things too. So why did I stay so long. And why did I miss him etc.

I try not to think about it anymore. I too have history of tolerating rubbish relationships. So worry that my boundaries are squad (not sure of the spelling there) . And what that means going forward. I don't want the children to learn from my example (as I did from my mother). But I also don't want people to think I've stayed single because I'm bitter/pinning for my ex. We as a family are much happier just me and the kids. But I do t want to be single for ever

Morning, I guess we stay partly because we sadly actually did love them and also hoping they will change, mine couldn’t see that the reason we argued so much was because of his shitty behaviour, it was always my fault for not accepting him as he was - well someone else is welcome to those ways trust me! He genuinely believed that I’d buy his pathetic story about not cheating on me when I found out on New Year’s Eve and stay with him, that was the limit for me - zero respect

You are very strong. That is amazing. Yes those rose tinted glasses are a buggar. They aren't all bad and you hang on for those good moments.

Yes mine was all my fault too. I'm happy to have a peaceful home without his black cloud. He sucked the joy out of everything. Just need COVID to do one now and get back to living a happy life.

Yes you definitely don’t need that for yourself or your children, I still have moments like this morning where I question myself - did he do it / didn’t he? But I shouldn’t even be doing that so I know I’ve made the right choice, in the past I would always miss him when we argued now I never want to see his face again.

How are you doing? x

Evening. Another fun packed week of home schooling and working.

Enjoying a sit down now and some quiet. Before the bedtime routine

Had to confront my idiot as he had been out socialising with friends. Before seeing the children. Apparently they are work friends so that makes going to their house ok.

No arguing with stupid.

That’s ridiculous- another reason you’re better off without him! You sound like you’re doing really well, I’m up and down which is normal I suppose, have done a few things over the past couple of days he thought I’d never be able to get done without him - as I only speak a bit of the language- but I did them!

@Indianafrankie that's great. It is good when you can do the things they use to do. I'm not practice at all but have done a few things I wouldn't normally do. Like build new bed. And plumb in a washing machine.

You will go through highs and lows. Just got to keep moving forward. Make sure you look after yourself