Why am I horrible?

[Magicpaint]

I am going through a divorce. My husband didn't want us to split but I did.
I've upset a good friend of mine now I've lost her as a friend.
I'm inpatient, horrible, never happy and I honestly don't know how to get out of it

It’s good you recognise this. No one is perfect. Work on your self esteem kindness, respect. Possibly Counselling

I was like this when I was grieving for my my mum and traumatised by her illness. Of course I’m still grieving as it never stops but I’m not as horrible anymore. What helped me was psycho therapy. Good luck.

I would say your husband has a result then.

What's behind your anger and unhappiness?

when you're alone what are you thinking / feeling about yourself. are you worried, frustrated, bored with yourself or life, angry over past events ...what?

I’m like this...I think it’s because my life is full of regrets and I’ve had nothing but bad luck most of my life. So I tend to take it out on those closest to me (usually a dp)

@Pyewhacket That's really helpful. I'm not the only horrible one by the looks of it only your spiteful as well.

Do you think you could expand on why you think you're horrible?

Do you really think that, or is it what you're being told?

If you do think that, how long have you been behaving in ways you don't like? Is it new?

You must be divorcing for reasons. What are they?

With your friend, what went on?

I find when I am horrid or difficult is when I am unhappy about something but struggling to find a solution.

Rather than thinking you are a horrible person have you thought about what makes unhappy?

If you could think about one or 2 things that you wished were different in your life what would you choose ?

Maybe start with those and see if you can make small changes or even just talk to Someone about it or write about it