my boyfriend is being mentally abusive tonight and I don't know what I should do. Im crying, I can't put up with him bullying me any more. He is nasty and narcissistic and he is ruining my life. Tonight I got dressed up for him coming home, makeup etc. Was dancing around sipping wine and flirting while he called the curry. He "cunt punted" me when i was trying to be flirty. He then commented that the woman on TV was beautiful. I tried to hug him standing up and he grappled me in a wrestling move. I am very very depressed and have been trying to be a new version of me, basically the old me who was elegant and playful and joyful. He made me feel masculine and small. I went to my room, he followed half an hour later, he made me tell him why I left. I didnt want to tell him because he fights with me and gaslights me when i do. He forced me to tell him, I told him im trying to be who I used to be and that he made me feel unwanted and rubbish with the wrestling etc. He then told me I wasn't who I used to be and I dont act like who I want to be. He tore me apart. I'm in bits. He just keeps going. What do I do im ruined and so unhappy. I feel that I'll never be me again.