Hi LittleKitty115,
We're sorry that you're feeling this way.
We hope you don't mind, but when threads like this are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected], or call them, any time, on 116 123. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you'll be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek real life help and support as well.
We've put together some information, in conjunction with Women's Aid, about where to find help for anyone in an abusive or controlling relationship. Please take a look here - Walking on eggshells.
You can also contact the Freephone 24 hr National Domestic Violence Helpline, run in partnership between Women’s Aid and Refuge, on 0808 2000 247 or visit womensaid.org.uk. If you are in immediate danger, always dial 999.
As always, we just want to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.
We really hope you're okay, OP. 