So I will try to be brief but I've got a lot of my mind.
I have recently had a baby, like a couple of weeks ago. A few days before I gave birth I found out my boyfriend was contacting other girls. During this time he had been staying at my house during lockdown.
It's been really tough to have him here. At first when I found out he was saying we could work out our relationship dynamics after I give birth. He is now saying 2 weeks after I've given birth that he's realised for months now he didn't want to be with me. He just didn't want me to be stressed during pregnancy. I'm completely just thrown.
He has now said we should focus on being friends, and working on co parenting but everything has happened so quickly. He left when baby was 5 days old and has come back to "help". I've not had anything to eat really because I've been so sad, yet when he's around he's asking if I'm making dinner. He leaves his clothes here to wash them. I told him if he wants to stay here to see his son he can't text other females whilst in my house. He basically told me I can't tell him what to do, which I realise but I just feel like I'm stuck with the worst bits. All the sad feelings, a baby that cries non stop. While he's back to his old life back
He's said he doesn't really like spending time with the baby and feels sorry for me for having to deal with the baby now. To make matters worse we were long distance with a view for him to come and work where I live once baby was born. He has now decided he doesn't want to move and wants to bring the baby to his every other week once the pandemic is over. How the hell can I work through my feelings when everything is so fresh? I feel like my imagined family has been taken away. We haven't even spoken properly about our issues.