I cant cope with my babys crying

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My son is 3 months old. He has CMPA/Reflux/Colic/Eczema. He cries alot of the time.

Its taking its toll on my marriage but most of all on me.

I shake with rage when he wont stop crying. He has a dummy but at time just spits it out even though it does pacify him and it makes me so angry I have to put him down and walk away.

I've had his non stop crying for 13 weeks, every day. My husband helps when he is around but no matter how much of a break I get I have to come back to it.

I am struggling to bond with my son.
I have a 3 year old daughter aswell who I miss spending time with.
I know for sure I won't hurt my son but I completely can understand how people can get to the point where they have done.

I regret having him some of the time.

I feel awful saying all this but saw a post where someone else was honest and no one actually said how disgusted they were which is what I expected if I said it out loud.

Please tell me this gets better

I wish you all the best. Will you can back and update us in a month. I’d love to hear when you’ve come out the other side of this. It would really make me smile.

Get a cleaner. DH will have the can house he craves. If he won't to pay for it, he spends Saturday morning doing the big jobs himself.
I see now I was depressed with LO1 due to colic and excema. Even now with LO2, DH is trying to make me feel guilty for not having the house perfect. I'm starting to see it's a control and anxiety thing in his side so I'm not jumping anymore to his silly demands.
I actually started to push back on that BS and it's better now.
Ask your GP and HV for help. Don't let it wear you down. I wish I'd reached out more to my family.
Some great advice here.
Just continue to call him out on his ridiculeous standards. If he wants it down, pay for it or do it himself!
You're doing a damn difficult job and doing it well!!!!