Cheating Husband - 11 week old baby

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Discovered the bombshell thursday night - he denied it. Stupid twat left a paper trail on his tablet so got the evidence to confront him Friday lunchtime - he couldnt not denyit then although i suspect i didnt get the full truth.

He doesnt want to make it work, im getting the full gaslighting "we werent happy" - bollocks, hes been distancing himself from me and the kids since it started when newest baby was 5 WEEKS OLD. I dont want him back but feels so much worse that he doesnt even want to fight after 8 years

im just lying here feeling numb with my baby on one side and my 3 year old on the other not knowing what comes next. Unmumsnetty handholds welcomed please

Because of the lack of equity and early repayment fees we couldn't sell the house anyway.

He will benefit financially from this but he only has shared assets - i need the cash and can be done without the headache tbh.

I have no family to move in with and nobody to help with the kids really, but i was doing it by myself anyway so that hasnt changed and lots of friends keeping me company of an evening so im ok.

The worst is the night time when the questions are just buzzing around my head. I really really hate him more as every day goes on. Trying to stay positive and see that ive got my beautiful children and that really is all that matters but just cant block out the anger and the hurt.