Been in touch with a guy I met a couple of years ago. We haven't met up recently but been having lots of texting and video calls etc. It's hard to get together due to child commitments and work.
I thought we were close and that he thought a lot about me but the other day he told me he had booked a last minute holiday and so there would be no chance of us seeing each other before Xmas.
He also has a lot of money whereas I am on benefits so everything hit me at once and I told them that I wanted more that what we had. I want a real relationship and that even if we did get together I would never fit into his world, I just wouldn't be able to be the woman stood by his side; I don't fit.
He was obviously hurt by this and got defensive saying he had never made any promises anyway (he had) so I felt basically like he had been stringing me along for months. Enjoying photos of me and leaning on me for support when he was stressed with work etc.
I was in tears so waited for him to get to his destination and messaged to say how sorry I was, how I had made a mistake. He replied and put kisses so I thought we were back on track.
I've since sent 2 more messages which he ignored. But I know he has WiFi as the messages delivered and he has been posting snaps. So today I asked if he was purposely ignoring me? He opened the message but did not reply.
He was clearly ghosting me....so I called him out on it. Said I never had him down as a coward.
He instantly replied to that and said it was me that wanted everything to stop. I explained that I was hurt and that I just wanted to know where I stood. He said I shouldn't have called him a coward.
Basically it was like he accepted my apology but has since let me grovel and once I've expressed my frustration he's thrown it back in my face. My ex always did this to me too.
Maybe it is just me. I'm heartbroken. I feel like I will never find happiness.
He had no real intention of seeing me I don't think, he has no Facebook and what's app blue ticks turned off. I half suspect he's married or something.
I feel like absolute shit about myself. My self esteem is rock bottom anyway and now this.
I was so kind to him and there for him but as soon as I show any assertiveness I get punished.
It's all the same pattern again.
Please help.