My new partner has killed my cat by accident

[Lorddenning1]

Just that really, it was a tragic accident, we got in the car to go out for the evening and we were travelling around 15 mph when he jumped out and there was no time to react.
He hit him and then I watched my little boy pass away and to make matters worst his injuries were quite severe so I have that forever in my mind :(
It's only been a day and I'm devastated, telling the kids this morning was grim and my oldest is very upset. Can me and my partner get through this, how do we get through this, he is in pieces too :(

Thanks for everyone's replies, I'm so upset and can't stop replaying the scene over and over again. If he had been hit by a car and I wasn't there and was told later, I would be sad, but nothing like this :(
Without going into too much detail I watch him die right in front of me, full of blood and his head with in a bad way, an u image I will never forget :( my poor little guy.
We got him as a kitten from a rescue and I soon realised he wasn't a normal cat, he couldn't walk straight, fell over a lot and his head used to wobbly when he concentrates, the vet said he had wobbly cat syndrome and he prob shouldn't be allowed to go out, so I was going to raise him as a house cat. Fast forward a year and one day I watched him climb up the trampoline netting, along the fence, jumped down on the bins and the he went over the fence (he couldn't jump like a normal cat) obviously i tried to get him back in and moved the trampoline but he did it again and again, and used to wait at the back gate until I let him back in, over time he mastered how to jump back in, I even moved the trampoline to the middle of the garden so he couldn't climb out and he just sat there and cried all day until I put it back, he got the taste of freedom and didn't want to stay in all the time, neighbours kept their eyes on him and told me he was good with the road etc so I thought he was ok and going out made him happy :( he has had a ball this summer.
My partner thinks he was spooked by a dog, who was getting walked and was going past the place he darted from, we have dogs too so I'm not sure y he got scared :( I can think of a million reasons why it could of couldn't of happened but it won't change the fact that it did and he has now gone and I don't have my wobbly like guy anymore :(
I am getting him cremated and keeping him at home (it's what my children have decided too)

Me and my partner had a very hard day yesterday, we have since talked and I have told him it's not his fault and I'm not blaming him, I would normally ask for some space but I thought I needed to be with him and I think I made the right choice, we will be ok but it's going to be hard.
For anyone that asked we have been together for nearly a year, dating for dating for 4 of those months at the start, kids have met him and like him, and I have met his.

My apologies for the title, my head was not im a great place when I wrote this thread.

@Catsandchardonnay thank you for your kind words, they have helped me a lot :)

@Whatnotwot thank you, this is a great summary of what is actually going on at the minute x

I know this may put me, but look how beautiful he is 💙

@Lorddenning1
He is a beautiful puss. Lovely, expressive eyes.

Something similar happened to us and we lost our cat as well. I felt very very sad and traumatised for the cat, but I also felt huge pain for poor DH who had to live with his (completely blameless) part in it.

Our situation was the cat fell out of a window in the night and was injured, she crawled under our car and DH didn't see her when he reversed the car to go to work. The car was what killed her. She was only 6 months old and wasn't allowed out of the house yet.

Blaming DH never entered my thought process, I just felt so, so sorry for him and the guilt he felt. That on top of the grief of losing our special kitten was truly awful. I feel for you and your DP

Lordenning what a beautiful boy. His white ‘bib’ looks so smart.

Aww, what a beautiful boy!

Sending you lots of hugs.

Sounds like you gave him a very happy life. Never forget that. I'm so sorry you are hurting. Take care of yourself.

He was a lovely cat & you will never forget him. The pain will ease in time, honestly, & you will start to think of the good memories more.
Please try not to dwell on how your cat looked at the end, at least you were with him to comfort him & he knew you loved him.

I had my late cat Millie pts at home Feb 2018 as she was dying of cancer & hated the vets.
I was devastated as she was there for me through my health problems & I loved her a lot.
I do dream about her & she's always running away from me in my dreams.

I did get a new rescue cat very soon after Millie died not to replace her but to keep my mind off her. It was too soon really but a year later we have bonded well. My new cat has a very different personality but I love her to bits.

I do recommend getting another cat, especially a rescue when you eventually feel ready as it can be a challenge that does take your thoughts away from your old pet.

Also making an album of your cats best photos & keeping their favourite toy helps xx

make matters worst his injuries were quite severe so I have that forever in my mind

lord it may help to have a photo with you, in a wallet or phone and everytime you have a flash back of him after the accident, look at his photo and superimpose the photo image over the flash back image.

I did this when one of our cats died in a rta, it really helped.

I am sorry for your loss

Op my DH ran over my cat William, It was a complete accident and I felt that I couldn't be too upset in front of him (I was devastated) as he was so upset. We both got over it, eventually, unfortunately our little female cat didn't and went into a decline from which she never recovered.

Your boy is a dead ringer for our Seamus. So sorry this has happned, try not to blame him I'm sure he is feeling bad about it.

Poor little fella 😢. He was gorgeous. So sorry for your and your little ones’ loss xx

Such a handsome fellow. So sorry for your loss. I would be devastated too.

Och he looks a real character. Poor wee guy! Xx

I'm so sorry for your loss. So sad. I can understand your pain. I have experienced a similar situation when my cat was run over. It feels a terrible loss. For your partner to have had the misfortune to accidentally run him over must be so painful for all of you. It is a cliche, but time will heal some of the pain. For now, just be very gentle with each other. Again, condolences.

Thanks Everyone, its been a few days now and its settled down, im still upset and i miss him loads and i have to get used to not having him around anymore, but i feel like a can control my tears alot more now.
I pick him up at the weekend to bring him home with me, where he belongs :(
im not going over the accident as much anymore and i am trying to remember him how he was and not what he was like at the end,
@Omniverse - thank you for your suggestion, i have started immediately thinking of him snuggling me every time i imagine what he was like at the end.
I have a heavy heart still, but i dont regret having him and how i feel is a testament to what he meant to me. I know he was only a cat to some people, but he was my special little guy :)

i have decided i cannot go through this again and i dont want to have anymore cats, this is the 2nd cat i have lost, and have been a young age, i have 2 small dogs at home, this is enough for now.

Big hugs to all who have shared their own experiences, its not easy is it