I sometimes think I imagine it.
I'm a male poster though to be honest I feel so emasculated.
Married over 20 years. Great 3 children.
Dw is ordained and tbh seems to spend all time at church (it's her job she says) and when home, goes on front of computer doing emails and the like. Meals are eaten in front of computer (I do all cooking) and when not working, she has sole control of TV (so it's itv be which I hate) or the like.
Sex was shut down by her years ago with the last time being sept 2017 by way of pity.
Is exceptionally good at job others say and yes, she does do a good job for others.
She is financially way better off than I am. Uses that to remind me she pays for holidays and the like.
I'm no Saint and though I do imo fair share (all cooking, all ironing, majority of vacuuming and like) I do sit on admin like stuff.
I'm regularly shouted at and mocked for fact I rarely smile (very self conscious of teeth which, through not perfect are better than they were) and can seem grumpy.
Women want someone who provides money she says and are not interested in sex in itself. It's just about procreation she says and it's used by women to get what they want ie designer stuff (of which she has huge amounts, self bought)
What is it like to be in an actual relationship with someone where its unconditional and you don't worry about something causing dw to go nuclear and shout? It can be something as little as computer not working and I get called at work and told to sort out.
I know this isn't normal but do I have an unreasonable view of what a relationship is? I always imagined it would involve someone who's best friend and with whom you want to do things and you can always be you. I'm constantly having to check myself in terms of what I say and the like.
The celibacy she's imposed kills me.