After a suggestion from a good friend who is on mumsnet I am turning to you all for a bit of advice.
My partner and I have been together 4 years and 7 month old. Things started out great but a couple of years into the relationship he changed and became disrespectful verging on abusive (has shoved me before), constant ‘jokes’ and wearing down my confidence.
Upon finding out about my pregnancy I decided to stay with him but things have only got worse and he has no interest in our child, which is an understatement. I tried to leave him once however I was also suffering from PND and didn’t have the strength to follow through. Anyway 2 weeks ago I came to stay at my mums to help her as she had recently had an operation, initially I was only meant to stay a couple of days but i ending up injuring myself so stayed here longer than intend. My partner had come around 3 times in that time, each time telling me he doesn’t want our child knowing my mum better than him (he has always been a bit weird with my family esp since I gave birth) anyway all of this brought up how I felt and how unhappy I am. So I told him I wasn’t happy that I don’t want to be with him anymore, from this I get told that I’m to blame, that I’m always making unilateral decisions and that I always tell him I’ll be back on x date and then change my mind. The only time this happened was when I was suffering from PND. So he backs me into the corner, gets me to agree to come back on a certain date.. even though I don’t want this relationship anymore. Now has gone back to acting like nothing ever happened when I said look this doesn’t change how I feel he tells me it’ll blow over.
Anyway my question is do I go back? I’m going back on my word if I don’t, but it isn’t like it’s a written contract.. you know like I have to do it, yet I feel like I must go back.