Depressed

[ToFeelHappy]

A month ago, life was great. We were happy, my anxiety had disappeared.

Every so often it feels like he loses interest in me and family life.

I haven't seen DP for over a week now, he won't answer my calls or texts.

DS6 cried in school yesterday but wouldn't tell anyone what was wrong, I wanted to keep him off today but he wanted to go, he cried on the way to school because he misses Dad.

I sat at home today worried and anxious incase the same thing happened today, when I collected him this afternoon his teacher told me he cried again today.

I broke down and told his teacher the reason why DS is getting very upset, because he is usually such a happy little boy.

I feel a lot better now I have told them, his teacher was very supportive.

I really dislike seeing him like this, he is my life and I always make sure I do everything to make him happy.

DP not long ago texted me asking if he can come home, I never told him to leave he left at his own accord.

I can't cope with him keep on doing this.

I know this sounds as if I am using this thread as my own personal diary but I just needed to let it out and I know that there are some wonderful people on here.

Thanks for listening

(I am not a new member I have been around for a while, I got a new phone and haven't recurved the email through reset password)

Sorry for the bad grammar, just really can't be bothered to make sure everything is perfect.

@KTara

I agree with you I am not going to be in denial, my son has developed anxiety due to DP and now I feel as if I need to take him to therapy but I don't want to explain the situation to a stranger.

For now DS is ok and that's all that matters to me, I will do anything to keep him happy.

@Closetbeanmuncher

I am worried the courts would give it full custody due to my anxiety and OCD.

And I do get myself tested regularly due to me thinking that he is cheating.

That's sensible re. Testing

Unmanaged mental illness that would potentially make you a danger to your child then he may be able to contest but that's clearly not the case here.

I suspect he's been filling your head with all sorts.

Absolute arsehole.

@Closetbeanmuncher

He is just not supportive when it comes to my anxiety and OCD maybe if he was supportive it wouldn't be so bad. I think he is used to me.

I think support or counselling is needed for your poor ds. And try to get help yourself. You will both feel better once you are in a stable situation without your controlling abusive partner. It may seem difficult to leave, but imagine staying and living like this for the rest of your life -surely that is far more difficult. Don't believe anything he says when you go, he may try to reel you back in with lies ,threats and bullshit. Your son will be far happier and more secure once he has stability. Wishing you well.

I think you should get your son some counselling. Let him tell people that his dad keeps abandoning the family. I don't know how you put up with it, I think you need counselling too to build up your self esteem. He's done it several times, he will do it again. As I said previously. Keep records of what he's doing, he will have no chance getting custody.

@user1471590586

Yes I agree with you, I need counselling too. As a person I am very weak, I feel as if my only purpose is to make and keep my son happy.

He had a very good day in school yesterday and was very happy to go to school today, but still went into the bedroom before we left to tell dad goodbye and ask if he is going to be here before he goes to bed.

My son shouldn't have to ask that.