I have joined Guardian Soulmates, because even though some of the profiles are a touch on the “earnest” side - in the end, after looking at lots of others, it was the one I liked the most.
So I have joined for one month (the other sites wouldn’t let you do that) and have messaged the only person I thought looked at all appealing. I am sure people are also judging me and I have had very few views and nothing else (joined today) - so I am not saying that I am better in any way - but just that this person was the only one who seemed interesting - something about him.
So I messaged him - just a would you like to message kind of thing - he has seen it (at 2.50pm), and has not got back to me.
And now I feel overcome by a wave of sort of shame and embarrassment - WTF am I doing - I should just get back in my cave and stay there 
. It feels very exposing.
I am recently divorced - ex moved out in April. In many ways I think I will never get over ex, my marriage or my awful divorce. Maybe I should accept that.
Maybe I am not suited to OLD 
. But I have blown £32 on it.
After all WTF would I care that some stranger does not want to answer a message. But I obviously do .
Is it rude to leave messages unanswered?